Today, I worried about finding a job. The worry/ need/ desire that’s been growing inside of me and turns into anxiety when I think about it too much. I used to think this was my motivator. Whenever I create pressure which is tied to my desire to push myself into the next level along this journey.
I am using career services through DesignLab and cherish the mentorship that is continued into the journey of finding a job. Meetings are like doses of motivation because the job search is tough out here!
Last month I was talking to 3 different companies and was so excited feeling the energy of your life about to change by landing a role. The path I decided to take when I wanted to choose myself by getting an education learning something helping me move forward. This is one of the happiest thoughts that I have in my brain and a value I practice daily. The best answer is always to choose yourself.
So much of this UX journey is tied to the self care that I realized I need to keep practicing with myself. The every day care that you need and deserve to enjoy from inside of you. It’s fully accessible at any time to take care of you. You are a star. Shining every day so you need to remember when your energy is low to choose yourself.
The inner self I go back to as I write this article because I need to keep believing in myself as a product designer and believing I am capable of taking the next step forward which in my head is landing a role. But this step is not the only big step that hasn’t been taken. I’ve been taking these steps ever since I decided to go back to school. Everything is always in motion. Just because that job hasn't come doesn’t mean your worth has halted.
Going back to school I experienced hard days when I would cry from feeling so emotional about personal life events happening while also believing in myself to work on school everyday to stay on track with believing in myself. Giving myself what I deserve to keep growing and having the ability to educate myself.
As I write this, this is a more emotional and personal story of the journey of a product designer but I wanted to publish something refreshing. We always see the new posts at the top of our feed about new positions being filled and big achievements. We need to remember what the journey is like and I’m here to document it because this job search is real hard. But I know I’ll be so happy when I read this article and I’ll be able to remind myself I knew that I will land the role that is perfect to my skillset and problem solving skills to expand as a designer.
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